So I work with all men, I'm somewhat of a sensitive soul...this used to lead to many days crying in one of these things because of hurt feelings after I thought someone was being mean to me (which was never the case 99% of the time):
And yes that's a portable toilet for those that haven't
been fortunate enough to use one. A
few years later, I am still working on dealing with how to not take
things so personally. I can say I haven't visited one of these things to excrete from my tear ducts in over a year!
The road to self improvement is something that someone who truly wants to be a better person will realize is a lifelong journey. One thing that I have learned so far in becoming self-aware of the fact that I am a work in progress, is that like someone that has suffered from any kind of addiction, it is quite easy to regress to what I was before...a negative and angry little brown girl with a chip on her shoulder who can give honey badger a run for its money.
Ever seen "Bridesmaids"...well last year I hit rock bottom, I was a mess emotionally and physically. I essentially let someone bring me down to that point, and even though it seems obvious on how much this will affect your life, you never quite realize how much of a changed person you are until someone else points it out to you finally.
I found a website that summarizes exactly how I felt and I think many women get to this point in their lives:
There was a time I wasn’t.
A time when I didn’t think I was worth much. A very confident and happy child turned into a rebellious, angry teenager who couldn’t see how amazing and wonderful she was and would never have believed it even if you told her.
Sad.
It took years of being a grown up to get that confidence and self worth back but there are still days that I get caught up in challenging situations and forget.
2013 is going to be the year that Angie does her damnedest to get her awesome back!
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